Raspberries and Cream
Its kindof hard to go wrong with raspberry and cream gelato. One of those things in life. I dunno.
So today was interesting. I had a good talk with my psych. We discussed chemicals and school for the most part. After I brought up the issue of alcohol, I began to empty my head. So many emotions, rationalizations and mistrust. One of the things I have learned in the past year is that chemicals really affect your ability to make decisions. Those little synapses are very powerful subconscious elements.
How often have you heard about someone that wants to quit smoking or drinking but they can't bring themselves to do it. The chemicals basically use their brains against them. This may be a scary way to look at things but I know for myself that drugs have a much greater effect on the way we think than we acknowledge.
So back to the point - I had a really difficult time saying that I was unable to drink responsibly or without addictive behavior. Most of this is that I don't know enough. I am trying to make a decision on little information. The past six weeks have been seen the only alcohol consumption for all last year. God knows I haven't smoked pot in almost two years. Yikes.
I couldn't say that I was an alcoholic or that I would become one. I don't know. What I do know is that drinking is causing me some confusion and annoyance. I also know that it has helped my social life immensely. Snarl. While I can't say that addiction is a good reason to quit drinking, I will say that dropping it will free some mental energy to focus on school. I am also trying to lose some pounds around the waist :) So that can't hurt either.
We also talked about school. I am in my second week of school in a long time. If you don't know, I have taken the year off from college. Now I am starting summer classes in the hope they will ease me back into full swing this fall. I still think its a good idea. So yea - I don't want to make any grand statements about my determination or my dedication to academics so I will save it for another post. Its only been a few days back on the horse.
One last thing... I am going to see my friend Jenny this weekend before she takes on a challenging job that involves a lot of traveling. She will be a very busy girl very soon. We both know we won't get to see a lot of each other but I am really happy she is taking on a project. Good luck, god speed and watch the pills...
So today was interesting. I had a good talk with my psych. We discussed chemicals and school for the most part. After I brought up the issue of alcohol, I began to empty my head. So many emotions, rationalizations and mistrust. One of the things I have learned in the past year is that chemicals really affect your ability to make decisions. Those little synapses are very powerful subconscious elements.
How often have you heard about someone that wants to quit smoking or drinking but they can't bring themselves to do it. The chemicals basically use their brains against them. This may be a scary way to look at things but I know for myself that drugs have a much greater effect on the way we think than we acknowledge.
So back to the point - I had a really difficult time saying that I was unable to drink responsibly or without addictive behavior. Most of this is that I don't know enough. I am trying to make a decision on little information. The past six weeks have been seen the only alcohol consumption for all last year. God knows I haven't smoked pot in almost two years. Yikes.
I couldn't say that I was an alcoholic or that I would become one. I don't know. What I do know is that drinking is causing me some confusion and annoyance. I also know that it has helped my social life immensely. Snarl. While I can't say that addiction is a good reason to quit drinking, I will say that dropping it will free some mental energy to focus on school. I am also trying to lose some pounds around the waist :) So that can't hurt either.
We also talked about school. I am in my second week of school in a long time. If you don't know, I have taken the year off from college. Now I am starting summer classes in the hope they will ease me back into full swing this fall. I still think its a good idea. So yea - I don't want to make any grand statements about my determination or my dedication to academics so I will save it for another post. Its only been a few days back on the horse.
One last thing... I am going to see my friend Jenny this weekend before she takes on a challenging job that involves a lot of traveling. She will be a very busy girl very soon. We both know we won't get to see a lot of each other but I am really happy she is taking on a project. Good luck, god speed and watch the pills...
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